this was suppose to be in the title : <ˆ> <ˆ>

those were suppose to look like stars, looked better in my imagination. haha.
i finally got yuanying on skype, now is reena. so i can officially quit adium so it would help emma.

well these few days might have been rough, but i am all better now.
relationships are all up and down isn’t it, its just about how you go about dealing with it.
not saying i’m doing a great job, but i am still learning am i.

if you girls are asking, i am happy.
overall i am still happy, just a little sore and hurt about everything. but dont we always feel a little lost here and there.

i’m just glad i can see the effort in him to make everything up.
and still secretly hoping and praying hard enough that  i didn’t make another mistake, cause another heartache might be the end of everything. wait, it would be.

i’m just wonder how my heart or just my personality can be so magnanimous to endure everything that was thrown at me.
and i still can feel the blissfulness of it. i guess its “love”.
it’s pretty hard in admitting you love something. cause once you do, it’s like an entire lifetime of devotion and committment to it. cause once you lose the energy to it, you would soon lose the love and just feel pretty much empty later on.

i had the choice of just torturing him just to get back at what he did. which was sinful, but not that sinful till he deserves that. see. this is me. i’m too soft-hearted.
many thoughts really ran in my head. what will happen when its really over over. will i find another or will i just rot and keep contemplating on what could have been if i never …

but life is all about taking chances and risks.
it’s never easy to step into something unknown.
but never let fear stop you, once it does. you’ll feel paranoid and you’ll start to feel insecure. and that will tangle everything together into a dead knot which you are dying to untie but just cant.

i think i’ve probably matured ( can i say so ? ) and maybe. ahaha. change i guess.
more emotional. i’ve never really felt heartaches in my life till now. i mean before, i did. i meant this relationship. lol.
but now i think i can think better in this aspect. and deal with things in life the same as i am dealing with this.

all good and bad i guess (:
but honestly, no regrets.

i’ll just end off with this. though boys are trouble, they are the only ones that makes you feel whole as a person.